To try and touch the clouds

 

Where is who I used to be?

She is gone

I am weaker than her....
But I know more

She was confident
I feel apprehensive 

Her life was all ahead 
Where is mine to go?

I press my palms against the glass hard
and try to touch the clouds
Tell me where is happiness?


I won't find what I seek up with clouds

Forget -me-not

All will crumble and fall
All you build will be destroyed
All you love will be no more
Like you've never been at all
You're all forgotten
No more..

Whatever..

Whatever you strive to do, however hard you try, you will fail and it's all a waste of your time. Accept your lot in life.

Oblivion

Today I resisted reaching oblivion, no respite. No sweet numbing and forgetting. I resisted, I feel and I remember.

Missing

Missing a piece, or missing the rest of the jigsaw? Broken. Camouflaged, those passing by neither see nor care.

Matters not?

Sometimes I just feel like I don't matter to anybody. I probably don't. Why should I?

Tunnel vision

The view I see, help me if you want but I see no other. I have always travelled along in the darkness and I have constantly always hoped to see the light, but I never have. I just have never been able to dwell in the light, I have felt in darkness always, is that the place I belong? Somewhere along the lines my personality got screwed up - but someplace inside my soul there's some good, something worthwhile? Is there? I wish. Maybe not, maybe they are all all right and I'm just one my own worst demon.. I am just my own worst enemy, my own destroyer?